Tuesday, February 20, 2007

Beta # 4 = Game Over

Beta #4 came in at only 34. The damn stork has tricked us again! Dr. M advised us to stop the PIO injections and let nature take its' course. I have already started bleeding so my HCG must have dropped pretty fast. Needless to say we are both emotionally and physically exhausted after this last week. There have been many mini-meltdowns over the last week, but I am still waiting for the big one to hit. It will probably be when I least expect it and at the most inopportune time. Right now we are both kind of numb. Our follow-up with Dr. M is tomorrow afternoon so hopefully he can give us some kind of insight as to why this happened. There probably isn't a really good answer, there is a lot the doctors still just don't know...especially when you fall into the "unexplained" category. This is SO not fair, as I am sure many of you know, and it just SUCKS! Next time that old stork gets close I think I will pluck out a few of his tail feathers and see how he likes getting messed with!


Carol said...

I am so sorry. darn. I have been refreshing your page hoping for good news. I'm Sorry for the loss, and sorry for the hell you had to go through the past week just to end up here. I hope you are able to get some answers and feel better soon and figure out your next steps.

Susan said...

Oh god. I'm so very sorry.

Keeping The Faith said...

Angi- I'm so sorry that you have to go through this. It really is unfair and cruel! I hope you are able to spend some much needed quality time with your husband over the next few weeks so you can mourn and start to heal.

Some unasked for assvice. My current RE is pretty big into immune issues and found several w/ me that my first RE didn't even test for. Have you been tested for immune issues such as Natural Killer cells, MTHFR mutations, etc...? Might want to be if not.

Again- so sorry. My heart goes out to you both. You are in my prayers.

Emily said...

I'm so sorry. You're totally right; it is so unfair. I hope that you are able to have whatever you need in this difficult time. Thinking of you.

Anonymous said...

Peter Dumpling
I am so sorry that this has happened to both of you again.
It hurts me so much that there is nothing that I can do for you to make the pain go away.
I know that the rollercoaster ride is just wearing you out .
I know that there is a silver lining in there for you and Hunter it just takes time for some things that seem so easy for others.
Just think how long that you waited for Hunter and it was well worth the waite.Hope that you and Hunter will have some healing time together and grow in your love for each other. I love you .

Stephanie said...

I am so sorry. Oh this all just sucks!

Valerie said...

I am so sorry.

Inglewood said...

I am so sorry. Shit, this just sucks.

Hopeful Mother said...

Angi, I am SO sorry. I can't imagine how hard this last week of beta hell has been for you.

You and Hunter are in my thoughts.

aah0424 said...

I am so sorry, Angi!